Who am I? What is my story? What am I about? What do I stand for? These questions define us. I could go back to my childhood and talk about growing up in a small West Texas town. I could talk about being the super nerd in high school who married her high school sweetheart. I could go on and on about my 20’s which I spent pregnant and breastfeeding. (Knowing me I will talk about all of these at some point) But, while all of these tell my story, they cannot accurately portray how I got to where I am today. That is a story of an amazing woman whose brief stay in my life changed my destiny.
In 2009-2010 a friend of mine who I had only known for less than a year was diagnosed with stage 4 breast cancer. God brought us together and I am a better woman because of it. Over the next 18 months, I got down in the trenches and tried to be there for her as she fought with everything she had to stay alive.
Now, to truly understand my story, you need to get a mental picture of me. I was a 33 year old mother of 4 who was very, very overweight. I volunteered at church and took care of my kids. I felt like it was my destiny to just be a fat mom. To be honest, I was scared to live life. I was scared to get out there and fail. But, crawling down in the trenches and watching someone fight for something you are taking for granted, changes you.
Every chemo appointment, every surgery, every time there was bad news, held a lesson for me. As her journey sadly was coming to an end, she was giving me a gift. She was teaching me to live life for all it is worth. To fight past the doubts, fears, depression, disappointments, and challenges because life is worth it. Life is worth fighting for. And not just to wake up, get through the day and be miserable. To wake up and seize the day, experience everything it’s got to offer because somewhere out there someone is fighting to have what you are taking for granted.
So, what did I learn? How did I change Who did I become? Well, I lost 90 lbs. I have done things I never imagined I would do. I got a black belt. I became a personal trainer. I started traveling. My husband and I go scuba diving. I started living. Like that I woke up one day a changed woman.